What would I do if given death date?

Ok- So still no job and I have so much anxiety today-Or maybe I am just dehydrated ---I have been working out alot-boredom and to reduce stress -

Did some errands with hubby and then gym and went to pick up my son at school-

We passed Nancy's house (she is the one ith Cancer) My son said he would stop by which was so sweet-My sister-in-laws car was there so I called and they were having a bad day! So we went home. My dad came over and talked to him a liitle about how it is bringing back memories of my mom and that I feel like I have paputations--Nerves- I got the same way with my mom!

I couldn't sleep last night, I wonder if she could knowing that she will not be here much longer and to take each minute--I just think she is overwhemed with everything and just so sad and depressed- I am sure we would all like to go in our sleep to spare the pain..but my mom gave the greatest gift I could ever ask- About 10 months before she died I sat down with her and she told me what to write in letters to the people she cared about including me- It was so diifficult but so beautiful-She loved me so much and I will always have that-I do wish that I could see her and hug her I miss her but she was so sick and in pain and I know that she is in a better place, I feel her presennce here and there- From when I was little she would say I might not be able to walk now but when I get to heaven I will dance! When she died the song " I hope you dance" was popular ---I incorporated that into the eulogy I wrote-

What would I do if I knew I did not have along time--

I would also write letters to those I love- Sometimes I catch myself just staring at my husband and or son and just capture those moments! Loving-silly moments and I hope that If I were sick I would think about these moments and just feel happy that I had such great moments in my life- Maybe easier said than done--