I am still here-

So lots of struggles and ups and downs this week--

I have to talk my self out of falling back into laxatives so many times but I did it- I must have retained water so that I looked like I gained 5lbs but that has come and gone-I also found out that a friend-Mybrother's mom-law has been told by her dr to stop chemo and only has weeks to live- This is just awful- What do you do with weeks to live. My mom was sick her whole life and I felt like I was preparing for her death for 20 years but this is shocking-

She likes me to visit at least once a week and I keep thinking that I may only see this person a handful of times- Very depressing-

Still no job --

trying to spend more time with friends-They keep me in check-